2/4/2008

Shelly's Page My story through my eyes. December 2006 A great starting point, I believe. I had been simming since my 13th birthday, since October of 2005, quite happily in a game called Gold Creek Sim, also known as Equus Dreams. The activity levels in ED/GC were low, so I decided to use the nifty Sim Directory and stumbled onto WF Show Grounds. When I joined in 2006 it was after we put my dog, Brandy, down. Fights with my dad were low, but seemed to be rising as I got to enjoying allsim. I loved the nice Arabians and the devoted people to them. I thought it was great, terrific. The best thing in the Sim World, to tell the truth. Then what happened? The 'newbie' effect began wearing off. As I got more accustomed to All Sim, people began turning away and talking less and helping less. I began to realize my horses seemed to be purposely taken off a few public-held shows, or deleted accidently. I talked to show owners who claimed I never even entered, and before I could them the proof, I found the thread was gone. I began to classify people, too, starting in early 2007. My first group was those who were kind and helpful. Namely the staff of WF and a few older players. In March fo 2007, I began to learn of the Immature group. The time the Immature Group formed, there was only a few members. During the Summer of 2007 a third group began to form. I called them at first The Superiors, because around that time I was still 'new' as I hadnt been on much. It would've changed them. The Superiors became the Snots, then the Snotty Arabian People. I began to realize that WF seemed to be inhibited with SAPs that just didnt plain like people who only used WF as a breeding/sales group with the few public shows that were held. Predominatly there were Arabians, and hardly anything else. My passion has always lied in stock horses, Morgans, and Thoroughbreds. I became interested in Arabians because that seemed the way to stay active. After awhile I began to realize that my horses were rarely seeing Champion of Class, much less than Division Champion. I stopped showing in the AHAC. I felt like I was being purposely dragged to the bottom. During the summer a huge change came in my life. My dad began to realize printing wasnt his thing, that he was loosing more money than he could make. We began to fight more, I unable to realize what exactly was happening because I was unable to think 'outside of the box' and because I had no clue where we laid on the social ladder, so to speak. I knew I was 'gifted' in school. I passed with flying colors and above average. I never realized the problems our new house brought on (we moved to our new house in March of 2006). The financial stress my parents were going under, I had no clue. Fights with my dad and brother occured regularly. My brother and his first official girlfriend stirred a lot of emotions in our house. I tried staying out of it. During Summer 2007, though, Dad's come home and slam a beer right away. I was moving into the big School and had no idea what to expect. No clue on how to act, how to fit in, what the Upperclassmen would be like. New thoughts began to develope over the loss of my dog. In real life, Im a loner. I tried desperately to fit in. I couldnt. I lived in the Cities my whole life and went to a school half an hour away. I had no friends that I knew before even starting school, and that being said, I gained and lost friends quickly during elementary school. Going into the middle school, sixth grade I made two awesome friends, and in ninth grade, they are still my friends. The last few months of seventh grade I moved to my new house and I was ripped away from my comfort zone, but look here! People like me! My new house was located in one of my favorite fishing spots. No longer am I surrounded with people who only care about how thin they are, what expensive clothes they have, who's dating who bullshit. I was surrounded with people who knew what a horse was, and past that. Terms that I had once used, such as red to describe a chestnut, or brown to describe bay, were gone. I could use chestnut, bay, palomino, buckskin and not get the 'freak' look I recieved at my old school. For awhile it was great, then I wasnt the new kid anymore. I felt the same thing happen on the WF forums. I saw it happen slowly, not as sudden as it happened in my new school. Summer of 2007 I took the forums because I made no friends in 8th grade, even after going to the same school for one plus school years. I saw sim as a family that I could escape from the lonliness I was dealing with in real-life, and with my father. 2008 Winter of 2007 came, and then the New Year. I rolled around into 2008 with dread. Already I had tried to leave, to force myself to take a break to relax and get away from the sim world. Several times I was unsucessful. The only thing I wanted to do was get on real-quick and see if my horses did good in shows, only to login and find out that my horses did not do good in shows, and a few entries were even missing. I was dealing with reclaiming issuses and trying to find the right path for myself. I learned about other breeds and grew interested in them, while at the same time I lost interest in breeds that I had once thought I liked. SAPs began to discourage me to show at WF. I began going to SAI more and more. Finally, the big break. I quit. I dropped everything, deleted everything. It felt like the world was finally rolling my way, even for a few moments. It felt like I had finally achieved the right thing; if only the right thing. Now, looking at that, I realize what the right thing was. To quit sim and leave everyone in peace. My Return. As with the attempted force breaks, I never got off being addicted to sim. If you're a heavy drinker, one day you say you're going to quit and from that moment on, you never drink again. It doesn't work that way, though. Just like being addicted to smoking, to booze, to drugs, you need the proper people to help, or in sim case, the 'waning off'. You gradually decline, keep a few horses you might've created or bought condition free, and keep them active while you give stats back. I tried that process, and found that I was getting critized because I was trying to import condition free horses into BITS so I could have more nice lined broodmares and such. That didnt work out all that well, and now Dee's spreading rumors about me. I got fed up with the critism and deleted everything and had a lovely feeling. The Lies. The Truth. These are the lies that have been started by me. For the full story, please contact me. - Dee's "Shelly's A Horse Theif" Possiblyy the best one ever! Truths Double-Triple-Playing People who are my friends and family and close realitives come over for good, random parts of the time, and they login and enjoyed sim. Maybe they say the horrofiying facts before I do. Sammy and Chris, my cousins who moved up to my area and came over one day, got them hooked when they were staying with us while they're family moved to a farm farther up north. I had no clue that once they left my house they'd stop SIMming altogether. Clair Bearly, aka Bearly, is half real, half fake. How does that work? I am an avid write and I picked the name out myself. I based the character upon a supposedly friend of mine, Clair. Clair came over one day, saw what was happening, and decided to take it upon herself to play the role. Again, I had no clue that once her brother returned she'd leave everything. How the hell do you know those things in advanced? You are probably thinking, 'these are all lies'. Well, fine, think that. One major thing I have learned recently, due to our newest boarder, is that you can never know the truth from the fake online. You can never tell what a person is thinking, even if you are looking that person straight in the eye. Every single human being is a stranger to us, no matter what you think. You can never understand how someone else's mind works. You'll never know what it's like to be handicapped unless you are. You'll never know what lonesomeness can cause, unless you yourself have experinced it. You'll never know what suicide can do to a family unless you go through it. Establishing the truth from the lies is nearly impossible. Yes, you can use IP addresses to track down people to some extent. I have recently uncovered a great plot around me. I am willing to expose it if I do not hear back from some people. I think it's incredible, this plot, and it's going to take me out of the limelight that I do not wish to be in. I will be adding to list as time goes on. I will be adding my thoughts and feelings and be including several short stories on the lies and truths and rumors and so forth so you can get an understanding of how i see things. I hope this page will help you understand me better and make sim more enjoyable for everyone. Making an honest apology to all, Shelly -- Written on the 4th of February of 2008
Written for a website that I was going to use to share my opions for sim users to help them understand me. Then what happens?

Shelly's Page Additional Comments To Add. Posted 2/4/2008 WOW. I never knew those people didnt know the defenition of 'opinon'! So yes, I posted this in the thread I started on WF Show Grounds (HORRIBLE SITE) and it has my direct thoughts and feelings about what's been going on there. So bitchy Noel decides I am taking direct attack at her when I made my opionons. It was 100% rude what she did, without any warning at all. I am talking about the sudden change in the SFR point system. I believe there shouldve been a discussion or an announcement about a possible change, and then people could've submitted ideas and thoughts into her. This cracks me up. Dee has "proof" that a BITS admin said I steal horses. Exact words:
As you wish: 'We don't like people stealing horses' Proof from BITS admin. 1. There is no backup, such as a screenshot of the 'instant messaging' that occured. 2. There's no direct mention of me. 3. I think it's just funny as hell. I have my people who can still get me access to WF. I really hope they keep the thread up so they can see my 100% true feelings about the SAPs that live there (excluding exactly three people from the SAP) all are SAPs. Im sure the three non-SAP people know who they are.

I get banned off the site I posted this on. Nice, isnti t?