To Restless

Thanks for the comments Rest, and sorry being buds with me makes you a bad person. Don't worry, though. We can rock the Appaloosa world, because no one understands them like us :D Thanks again for the comments. I had a smile reading them. They're published now, by the way.

And... yes, there is an age limit for my softball organization. I may be taking a couple years off until I can join an 18U team. We'll see how that goes, though. Softball isn't something that I want to give up lightly.

Battling With Words

I'm a best bud, go me, go me. I know what you're doing, I can see everything you see, and most importantly, I know what you are doing to my SAP title! I will charge you for that, and will not rest until you are residing in a dirty jail block, eating stale bread and moldy cheese.

Softball finished this weekend. I am saddened, as it was my last season of softball. Next year, I may go and help out Rob with coaching, which I would really love to do. I have some ideas on that.

I'm home alone and plotting my revenge. I have everything planned out, and the approximate time it'd take on everything. I cannot wait. All the hell those SAPs 'n' More have put me through... they'll pay for it. I'll get them better than... than... Gary Sonje got Alex Cross. Make no mistake. They'll be watching over their backs for good now.

I am writing a novel, called 'The Dumbass Childish People of All Sim'. You know what? All Sim is home to all the crazy fuckers who do not know how to play by the rules. That's all it comes down to being. Now... *pats Restless, Indiza, ASApHC, ASKC* those are the real deal of all sim. Not the fucking crazy ass bitches at STUPID AMATUERS, INC and WHACKED FUCKERS.

Blah blah blah.

The Day

Oh, an interesting email came today. I read it, replied, and then my beautiful black thoughts came back. I was thinking about it, and thinking about 'The Day'.

I was reading Double Cross by James Patterson. There's some good, unanswered questions. Like, why is it okay to cry at a wedding, but not okay to laugh at a funeral? Another statement, I think, was we come into this world easily, but our leaving is much harder. Interesting questions from an interesting guy, I think.

But this email, it reawoke the feelings that I have felt since April. The emptiness has now been sucessfully replaced. I have limited myself. I feel happy. Why now, all of a sudden, does this email come, reawake my thoughts, and make those nice black thoughts come back?

'Sick Of This'

Several Updates

Softball: We didnt even finish our second game; we were done by that much. Our third game went much better. We still have problems with pop flys, suggested we work on those in our practice on Monday, but our relay from the outfield, outfield pop flies, and "ball not base" were really improved on. We lost by one run, so we dont think we did bad and Rob was happy with how we did. My pitching was good, especially after I relaxed. I got them to swing at several of them, and got a lot of hitters. I think Im one of the better pitchers again. Pitcher is one of my primary positions, along with short and first (although I aboslutely love first!!)

School: Done with for the summer. Nothing to say here.

Family: I have family coming in on the 29th (ten days) and I dont know what'll happen during that time.

Trigger: huh. where to start?

Fish: My aunt & uncle gave me ten or so guppies to add to my aquarium.

Extra: blah.

Softball & FFA

I started softball, yay. Apparently our team sucks. We lost our first game like 25 to 7. I wasnt there, I was at my FFA banquet for my chapter.

I recieved awards for qualifying for state in Fish and Wildlife, for competing in Small Animal, for taking third in Web Design ("desgin" according to our president Liz) (and a ribbon!) and for Freshman Outstanding Member.

Liz, I'll miss you! You were a terrific president and were awesome. It wont be the same without you as our president.

Song List

Sugarland /Little Big Town /Jake Owen-Life In A Northern Town
Luke Bryan-All My Friends Say
George Strait-Wrapped
Emerson Drive-Moments
Garth Brooks-More Than A Memory
Tracy Lawerence-Find Out Who Your Friends Are

Oh...

Oh my goodness.

I've been noticing lately that I've been switching words/letters/numbers around or adding to them. Like, today, I got a message that said something like 'over personal message' and I thought it said 'overall personal message' and i was like WTF. And then a while back, in History, one of the cards Pieper gave us said 'structures that still stand' and I read it as 'structures that stand still'. And lately, I've been switching/missing the numbers in my lunch PIN. No wonder why im not getting my food!

I dont think i have any disabilities, other than not being able to read properly! If it progresses any more I'll have to talk to Mom about it.

And my brother's going into surgery tomorrow at one.