Battling With Words

I'm a best bud, go me, go me. I know what you're doing, I can see everything you see, and most importantly, I know what you are doing to my SAP title! I will charge you for that, and will not rest until you are residing in a dirty jail block, eating stale bread and moldy cheese.

Softball finished this weekend. I am saddened, as it was my last season of softball. Next year, I may go and help out Rob with coaching, which I would really love to do. I have some ideas on that.

I'm home alone and plotting my revenge. I have everything planned out, and the approximate time it'd take on everything. I cannot wait. All the hell those SAPs 'n' More have put me through... they'll pay for it. I'll get them better than... than... Gary Sonje got Alex Cross. Make no mistake. They'll be watching over their backs for good now.

I am writing a novel, called 'The Dumbass Childish People of All Sim'. You know what? All Sim is home to all the crazy fuckers who do not know how to play by the rules. That's all it comes down to being. Now... *pats Restless, Indiza, ASApHC, ASKC* those are the real deal of all sim. Not the fucking crazy ass bitches at STUPID AMATUERS, INC and WHACKED FUCKERS.

Blah blah blah.

The Day

Oh, an interesting email came today. I read it, replied, and then my beautiful black thoughts came back. I was thinking about it, and thinking about 'The Day'.

I was reading Double Cross by James Patterson. There's some good, unanswered questions. Like, why is it okay to cry at a wedding, but not okay to laugh at a funeral? Another statement, I think, was we come into this world easily, but our leaving is much harder. Interesting questions from an interesting guy, I think.

But this email, it reawoke the feelings that I have felt since April. The emptiness has now been sucessfully replaced. I have limited myself. I feel happy. Why now, all of a sudden, does this email come, reawake my thoughts, and make those nice black thoughts come back?

'Sick Of This'

Several Updates

Softball: We didnt even finish our second game; we were done by that much. Our third game went much better. We still have problems with pop flys, suggested we work on those in our practice on Monday, but our relay from the outfield, outfield pop flies, and "ball not base" were really improved on. We lost by one run, so we dont think we did bad and Rob was happy with how we did. My pitching was good, especially after I relaxed. I got them to swing at several of them, and got a lot of hitters. I think Im one of the better pitchers again. Pitcher is one of my primary positions, along with short and first (although I aboslutely love first!!)

School: Done with for the summer. Nothing to say here.

Family: I have family coming in on the 29th (ten days) and I dont know what'll happen during that time.

Trigger: huh. where to start?

Fish: My aunt & uncle gave me ten or so guppies to add to my aquarium.

Extra: blah.

Softball & FFA

I started softball, yay. Apparently our team sucks. We lost our first game like 25 to 7. I wasnt there, I was at my FFA banquet for my chapter.

I recieved awards for qualifying for state in Fish and Wildlife, for competing in Small Animal, for taking third in Web Design ("desgin" according to our president Liz) (and a ribbon!) and for Freshman Outstanding Member.

Liz, I'll miss you! You were a terrific president and were awesome. It wont be the same without you as our president.

Song List

Sugarland /Little Big Town /Jake Owen-Life In A Northern Town
Luke Bryan-All My Friends Say
George Strait-Wrapped
Emerson Drive-Moments
Garth Brooks-More Than A Memory
Tracy Lawerence-Find Out Who Your Friends Are

Oh...

Oh my goodness.

I've been noticing lately that I've been switching words/letters/numbers around or adding to them. Like, today, I got a message that said something like 'over personal message' and I thought it said 'overall personal message' and i was like WTF. And then a while back, in History, one of the cards Pieper gave us said 'structures that still stand' and I read it as 'structures that stand still'. And lately, I've been switching/missing the numbers in my lunch PIN. No wonder why im not getting my food!

I dont think i have any disabilities, other than not being able to read properly! If it progresses any more I'll have to talk to Mom about it.

And my brother's going into surgery tomorrow at one.

My First Western & School Stuff & Other Stuff...

Yippee! I started writing my first Western, and so far Im having fun with it. There's a good mystery to the story and hopefully how I write it it'll give some suspense to the story. The other story, the one that I have a blog for, is going to be worked on in bits and pieces here and there. I dont think I want to do that one again, though.

This Western... if I get it published I'll be shocked. That's my goal anyways! I'll be very happy to reach finialization; even if I dont get it published. Im actually writing this one, so I can work on it whenever without having to fire up my computer. Which is good, because that beast takes so long and then sometimes it randomly shuts down and stupid me, I never save my work frequently enough and rely on the autosave. Gotta get better about that!

I also made my clay pot in art today, so tomorrow I need to trim the bottom and make it look all nice and fancy-smancy. My dancing fish... that's another story. I got both fins on today and hopefully tomorrow I'll suceed in getting the arms on. I need to sculpt the body some more, so I think if I put "fat" on it'll look better. I'll try and get pictures of it once it's done.

Oh and on my face-vase I got a 47 out of 50! I was so proud of myself. I'll try and get a picture, but its a fish jumping out of the water with a sun in the background and then rapalas and fly rods on the borders. I was proud of myself and I think Mom's going to hang it up down here. Fits right into the hunting & fishing them we have going on. So far I've supplied my bass clock and want to do a nice drawing of a fish underwater to supply also. I think that'll be cool, especially if I can give it to Dad for his birthday or something (have a year to do so!)

Test in History today. I think I did OK. It was an easy chapter test, nothing to big to worry about. Science was a bore, finished the slideshow on Hydrogen Fuel Cell alternative power. Going to present that tomorrow. Hopefully it'll go ok. I dont think my parent is going to present with me, but I love presenting my slideshows so... lol.

Horse Science... test tomorrow. Breeds & Notes... should do some studying on that. The breeds Im good on, I think. The Caspian and Cerbat and Florida Cracker are the only ones that throw me off. I think I know of the Cerbat one for sure now so... we'll see. I cant wait until we get into genetics for coat colors. I think that'll be really interesting to learn.

Im also going to compile my German notes eventually... if I can find them. haha. Once I do Im going to compile them into a notebook so I have reference to everything. Im going to get that language mastered if its the last thing I'll do! Course, I've only had one year of it, so we'll see how year 2 goes in German.

Im on the hunt for a Western-themed RPG. Random hunt but hopefully something will come up. I think that'd be a rather interesting RPG, and we'll see. Maybe I'll try and create something myself. Who knows?

I counted ten days until State! Im nervous and excited and really need to get my butt studying those flash cards so I know the ID part. I did so horrible last time. Not even funny. I cant do that bad at State. Im aiming to place in the top five. That'll be a good goal. Im sure we'll do fine, but im nervious about the ID portion because I did so horrible last time. :(

We have the Horse Expo next Friday, but Im not going with my grandma this year. That was horrible, finding that out. It was the one thing I look forward to every year with her, even more this year because they got a whole bunch of new things. Like a Vaulting demostration! I wanted to see that SO badly! But we're not going... :( That was a huge blow.

They're still trying to sell the horses. If they sell as a pair I get $250, if they sell seprate I get $200. Either way, I'd love the money. I'd be sitting pretty if I decided to buy a car next year. Which I'd love to, but first I need to find a job... which I should start doing soon. Maybe after State I'll start looking for a job, since School is almost out.

Hm dum.

That's all for now, I think. And if it isnt, I'll throw another post on this sucker and keep writing!